Sunday, January 8, 2012

The Blahsies


Gosh, it's been so long I'm not sure if anyone reads my little ole blog anymore (other than my parents :))
but hi!

I feel like I've been gone for forever.  I'm not gonna lie ya'll the last month or so (exluding the holidays) have been less than sweet.

You see, I'm a new nurse.  I graduated last December, but with Josh's job and us moving, I am just starting out in this big bad world of nursing.  And it's been a wee bit overwhelming.  To the point of depression on my part.  Ugh, and I hate feeling like this because I am SO incredibly blessed with my life and the people in it, but boy do I feel down lately.

Maybe it's the combination of a new city, the field of Oncology, the cold, and not having really anyone to lean on other than Josh here. 

But it's bad.  When I come home from work I don't want to move.  When I have days off I can't shake the dread of work and can't enjoy myself.  My poor husband, parents, friends, I know I'm not the happiest to be around and I don't know what to do.

Don't get me wrong, I do have good days at work.  I enjoy my patients (for the most part), and the people I work with, but it's a little more than I can handle at times.  I hear the same respones every time someone asks how it's going....

"Oh, that's normal to feel nervous, overwhelmed, silly, etc. etc." 
"Comes with being a new nurse"
"etc etc"

And I get it....


I've read a million times over how normal this is for new nurses....


it WILL get better and I will feel more confident in myself.  It will just take time...

But until then I'm trying so desperately to pull myself outta this funk.  For real.

If you're still reading this, I commend you.  I really hate posting depressing shenanigans like this because I really am blessed to have a job....

This too shall pass....

Until then complete me.


  1. That's the worst! I have a bad habit of feeling that way this time of year. Hope you feel better soon! Blogland always cheers me up :)

  2. i still read! :) hope you get out of this funk...i can imagine a new job is working in oncology. Cheer up Buttercup! :)

  3. Posts like these are real homegirl! ;) And personally some of my favorites. I can't express to you how scared I was starting out. It does get better. I can vouch for that! And that's coming from a girl who started out in critical care. ha. Where are y'all located? P.S. You and the hubs are super cute!